Skipped a Few Days

Well, I didn't mean to, but I slipped up on posting daily. I was a busy man all weekend with meetings and time with the family...oh, and Fallout New Vegas. I can't get enough of certain games, and this is one of them.
I was given a copy of the Big Book at a meeting earlier, and I have slowly begun to read it. So far, passages have come up that have made me evaluate my life, and what problems I have had. I've heard stories of those who have completed the first 3 steps in their program, then have given up over and over again. I don't want to be that guy.
I guess I want that bliss of knowing a purpose, of understanding myself, and having less weight on my shoulders at all times. So far, 2 weeks without drinking has been a little rough, though I still persevere. I am still attending meetings, and learning things about myself at every one of them.
I heard a story last night about a guy that I could have sworn was me 15 years in the future and just about cried, it definitely hit home. He said some powerful things and identified his problems and what they caused.
I don't want to get stuck, I don't want to go to bed anymore saying to myself that that was the last time I was ever going to drink. I've thrown up and kept drinking, I am a bit more clear headed than I was a week ago, but I still have a long way to go.