What's your function?

The title may be a bit misleading, I mean it. What I really mean is what's your poison? In my life, I am addicted to beer, I can function well into a 12 pack and not bat an eye. I'm not a huge fan of liquor or wine, but they'll do. What I have been focusing on in the past few days, I have been listening to commercials and seeing advertisements for happy hours and such.
It comes as no surprise that there are so many out there, but that was never my problem. The grocery store, the gas station, and the liquor store are my problems. The grocery store is definitely my biggest downfall, having to go shopping as I used to do, but without buying a 12 pack or something.
Last night was my first A.A. meeting, I had no idea what to expect, yeah of course I had a clue with TV and all, but nothing to compare it to other than that. It was different, good, but different. The people cared about what others were saying. Some were there court mandated, or by their parent's wishing, but the ones who were there of their own volition, those were the ones I really enjoyed meeting. All walks of life, all perspectives, and all very dedicated to being sober.
One of the MOST important things I took from that meeting was it is the first drink that gets you. I used to drink a 12 pack on my own in a few hours, and know that this is the truth. I find myself reflecting on the problems that were in my life, and for the most part, alcohol was the revolving theme.
It kept me awake most of the night, I won't lie. I was trying to find a few situations where this wasn't the fact, but other than things outside of my control booze was flowing through my system.
It's a scary thought, knowing that you beat yourself up over and over again, and left yourself open to these situations. I have had alot of close calls, and alot of understanding people stand by me even when I didn't know what I was standing for. I still have alot of meditation to do on myself, especially concerning what I want, I have never really thought about it. I never really planned anything, I just flowed out like beer out of a bottle. So tonight, it is time for some reflection.